The Inner And Outer Beauty Movement
I’ve been struggling lately.
The past month I’ve been having a hard time feeling confident in who I am and what I do.
I love laughing and being happy but also motivated, driven and successful. This transition into working for myself has tested the boundaries of my strength. I’ve broken down and cried more times than I’d like to admit and what I thought was my only skill - getting sh*t done - has wavered more than laundry flapping around in the wind.
This morning as I taught my yoga class, I kept picturing the phrase, comparison is the thief of joy…. I finished my class, went home, crawled into bed and cried. Why? Why was I feeling so bad about myself? Why couldn’t I find the motivation to write a billion blog posts? Why couldn’t I gain 100k followers overnight? Why couldn’t I have an unlimited bank account to buy clothes? Why couldn’t I find the strength to take one freaking yoga class?
I didn’t want to call anyone or tell anyone in fear of burdening others with my problems, or worse, to make them think I was weak by listening to me.
My heart was breaking, my stomach upset and my head spinning. So I did the only thing I could think of that was left - I started praying.
I don’t like to share much about my faith on my channels here, I just find it so personal and I already tell you so much about makeup, clothes and physical fitness; I didn’t want to add another “preaching” facet to the equation.
The thing I like about being a Christian and praying, is that you can say anything to God and He WILL care, He WILL listen and you are NEVER burdening Him. So, as I balled my eyes out saying I was struggling in every aspect of my life, the phrase of “comparison is the thief of joy” kept creeping into my mind.
Coming full circle here, I see so many things that inspire me on social media and blogs. People who are happy and filling other peoples cups by their sunshine and lightness AND people who are going throughhhh it. Like, much worse than my dumbass problems of not knowing if I’m good enough to have a brand based on Inner and Outer Beauty.
I think it’s only natural for people to compare themselves to others, but gosh if it isn’t tough on your psyche.
Have you seen this meme?
ITS SOOOO TRUE!!
I know I’ve said this before but I want to inspire you. I want my highs and lows to be a testament so that you don’t have to walk away from your app feeling like you aren’t good enough.
I don’t know if I inspire you, but I can tell you something fam, getting to express this to you, has inspired me.
You inspire me to be better!
You inspire me to be the best I can be!
*No matter how hard that is sometimes haha!
I’m not even sure if combining fashion/beauty and fitness/mental wellness is a thing that will ever get popular or will reach the masses but if I can help ONE person feel better, then it’s worth it.
We can’t do this alone. I know I can’t! (read above where I cry alot) but we have each other. To help encourage others I want to start a hashtag that can be used as a beacon for love and confidence.
Whenever you are freakin proud of yourself for making it to a yoga class, for eating a healthy breakfast, for when you wiped your tears away and stood up, for when you put together a kick ass outfit, for when you showed a friend some love by driving them around, for when you got a promotion at work, for when you sent your family a text saying I love you, etc etc etc TAG THAT HASHIE. Let’s make this a community of rooting for each other in the high highs and also in the low lows.
I’d love for you tag me so I can share it with our fellow community, to lift you up.
We are all works in progress, that’s what makes life unique and beautiful. I hope that you know I’m trying to be the best work-in-progress myself so that you can be the best work-in-accomplishment, yourself.
Love you all,